Sick day

i was not feeling well yesterday, Mistress knows just how to make me feel better. She came home from work I was asleep in bed. She made me drink some cold medicine then flipped me over and gave me a nice long bare handed spanking. Afterward She tossed me off the bed and instructed me to fetch Her cigarettes. After taking the pack from my mouth She lit a cigarette. The first time She ashed in my eager mouth She said "take Your medicine" this made me melt. i knelt before Her as She finished Her cigarette and we going through some things in Her canvas bag. After putting Her cigarette out on my eager tounge Mistress covered my head with Her canvas bag and caned my body as I knelt before Her until i cried. Afterwards i layed my covered head on Her leg as She relaxed. After awhile She took the bag off my head as began to spoon feed me soup as i knelt with my hands behind my back sure to say "thank You Mistress" for every bite. i spent the rest of the night kneeling with my PVC blanket next to Her be while   Mistress relaxed and enjoyed the evening. It made me feel a lot better! When i am sick i crave Mistress attention like a child who needs its mommy. Mistess always knows just how to makes feel better! i never forget how perfect She is for me! my greatest joy is always being at Her feet.

In my cage

Mistress allowed me to sleep in my cage last night for the forst time in awhile. I think i have mentioned before that my bright pink cage is tucked away inside Mistress's walk in closet. Sleeping in it used to be a pretty normal ritual but it has been about a month or more since i have slept there. i used to sleep so good in my cage it made me feel safe and secure. It was generally where I got the best sleep no light or noise can't get in you are sensory deprived for the most part. It's a pretty small cage for a pretty big gurl. It is the largest pink dog crate that is offered. Considering the range of movement never allows you to full stretch  it is not for the cloisterphobic. 

Mistress informed me i would be sleeping there so i eagerly crawled in Mistress covered me in my PVC and fleece blanket that i adore then snapped the lock shut on the cage and closed the closet door behind Her. Locked in the darkness i laid my head back as almost fell asleep instantly. Them i would wake up feeling panicked and trapped a feeling  i have not felt inside the cage i usally associate with comfort. It was a strange feeling then i would eventually just fall back asleep. Only to wake up again with those same feelings. It was such a relief to hear Mistress opening the lock and the cage door before leaving for work this morning. It made me remember noatrer how bad it gets She is there to keep me safe. That is my new reason to enjoy the time spend in my cage!

On Sunday morning Mistress called me into Her room. When i entered She pointe to Her cigarettes I knew what that ment, it was time for me to be Her ashtray. i eagerly scurried over to Her cigarettes crawling backing with them in my mouth. Mistress told be to get a big black dildo and me I would be fucking myself while She smoked and dryed Her hair. After lighting Her cigarette I lubed the big black cock up and bagan to ease my way down onto it. Inch by inch by inch until i was bouncing up and down swallowing it each time. I stared at Mistress's burning cigarette hopeing it would never end if felt amazing as Mistress hurled insults from behind the howl of the blow dryer. With each ash that when into my mouth I knew it would be that much less time i had my sissy pussy full of rubber cock .  I rode it for my Mistress's amusement a short time before I felt the burn of Her cigarette being put out on my tounge. Just like that She dismissed me to go clean the toy and leave Her be. It was a great start to my Sunday .

Have just been very busy this past week Mistess is having a horrible time with Her back. It throws everything a little off balance when She is not feeling Her best.  It makes Her not Herself for lack of a better term. We had to take Her to the Er early last week, in the waiting room there was 3 other people from our local kink community so that wa pretty funny. So there has been just a lot of downtime here I am sad to say. Life has its ups and downs. I started this blog with the intention of keeping updated often so people would kind of have an insight into my life and things and maybe learn and relat along the way ! I feel bad that I am not able to keep up with it as often as I would like at this time but I will still try my best until everything is back to normal :)

Broken Puter

i had planned on doing a lot of updating of my blog this week since I neglected t so much last week. However when i went to write yesterday i opened the laptop and much to my dismay, the screen was broken! So until i can replace the screen i will haw to use the blogger app on my phone. Which means the entries will be filled with more spelling errors and grammar issues than usual. They will also be shorter. All that being said i have gotten a few emails this past week wondering where i have been and what had been going on, some have outright been clam wrong for another entry. i am honored so many people are inteested in my journal it means a lot i really appreciate all the support! 

i have not been myself for about a week i spent a lot of time in the garage working on some leather projects. Some of you may know that i do a bit of mediocre leather work and Mistress does some sewing it allows us to craft a lot of our own gear and toys. Sometimes you jut find yourself lost in a project. girl Jeni and i found ourselves working on one project then eager to start a new one until before we knew it we cranked out quite a few little projects, then all of a sudden a week went by. 

Here are a few of the things we made this week.

jeni had been bugging me for a long time to make this gag for punishment....yes it's soap...

We also made this pair of PVC arm binders. 

And this cute leather bow headband it matches a pair of heels i have!

Thia is Mistresses strap on which i made awhile back but I had been wanting to improve it for a very long time. So Her name was added to the back aswell as the pink trim , the spade for my Queen of Spades, and the handmade leather bows ! We managed to hide this and keep it a secret until it was finished! I also made Her a very pretty collar that days Black Owned ! I presented them to Her together.

There is also a few other unfinished projects in there i will post them when they are finished since they are directly sissy related and they are what stares this project craze!

As i said yesterday i was going to post an entry but i was taking care of jeni all day. As many know jeni is my slave and the only person i top our relationship is not sexual in nature it is service oriented very similar to Mistress Carrie and my dynamic. When i play with Her Mistress is usally involved in some way as jeni is Her property aswell. Since i am almost always enfemme she does serve me as a female and since i am generally in uniform jeni submits to me reguardless of what i am wearing. Though on Tuesday night when i decited to play with her i was guy ish lol my male uniform is a bit different as a female i am usally required I wear a maid uniform if not i am required to be fully dressed in an outfit style of Mistresses choosing. As a male i wear a black t shirt with "slave ashe" monogrammed over the right breast and a pair of panties or diaper and that it. For this particular occasion I had my shirt and pink/white frilly panties. (i know super dominant right) I had Jeni strip ad put a hood and arm binders on her. She enjoys a lot of pain and dehumanization. So i had her get on all 4s and began a light caneing. Just slowly warmed her up as Mistress lit a cigarette to make sure my attention was always where it belonged. I beat her like this for a bit with various toys until Mistress put Her Newport out on my tounge. Then She retired tithe bedroom. I had jeni flip over on her back so I could work on her breasts i was beating them good and hard punching slapping bruising with each hit when all of a sudden Mistress walked out with her strap on, a BBC hanging between Her legs. i eagerly scurried over to suck it getting it nice and wet to go in jenis cunt. She slid it in and fucked her all while we both beat her tits as muffled cries and moans could be heard from behind the hoods gag. After a good fucking a beating i decited to give her an enema with my piss! (Jeni is a piss an human toilet junkie!) i peed in out enema pitcher but it wasn't to much so i had the bright idea to mix it with vodka. Now this is nothing new in Mostress's house we do a lot of alcohol enemas if done properly an safe it is very fun! Again there was. It much piss so i didn't put much vodka in. With an enema the alcohol is not filter led through the kidneys so it can be very intense and a little goes a long way. This is also where the risk is involved. Since it is not filtered through the kidneys there is a real risk that you can get alcohol poisoning. But all seemed well jeni was enjoying a nice buzz and a belly full of my piss to boot! A bit later i got tired and sent her to bed Mistress went to bed aswell. The next morning Jeni was really sick and very dehydrated. Pooping blood even! Couldn't hold anything down! This was not by any means her first alcohol enema. she ha never reatacted like this before. Maybe it was the trauma from playing? Sometimes with Jeni is played with strange things happen so its kind of like a coin flip sometimes. So anyway she had to get a saline iv to get some flui in her but I had to sit with her all day and she is a bit better today but i am still sitting with her to nurse her back to health and i will all day for asking as it takes because it something you have to do for someone you love. Even at the price of my daily routine.