The Gravy Train

Mistress allowed me to eat dog for dinner last night, a can of beef and bacon gravy train to be exact! i was so excited at the impending humiliation of eating it out of the dog bowl where i eat most meals. But dog food has never actually been in there! She had me stand in the kitchen as She opened the fresh can, She took a whiff and gagged. "it cant be that bad" i thought but when She put the can up to my nose and commanded me to smell, i knew i was in for more than just a quick meal. i could feel Her power as She dumped the meal into my stainless bowl. She felt satisfied at what She was about to make me do. my excitement mounted, i put my hair in a ponytail and when She gave me permission to eat i stuck my face in the terrible smelling mess and dug in! my excitement quickly changed to disgust at the reality of the situation. Despite my humiliation (even my girl got to eat and actual meal and got to watch her superior eat dog food) and despite Mistress degrading me though the whole thing, it was so terrible on the tongue. The dog food did not in fact taste anything like bacon OR beef, it had an earthy flavor and a gritty texture. The taste was foul and it took alot of mind of matter to chew and swallow even a single bite! i struggled threw it and managed to not vomit as Mistress informed me i would be eating that too if i had. i ate and ate until Mistress told  me i was finished with about half the can left. i was rewarded with Mistress Newport ashes and cigarette butt as desert as well as my own pink fag cigarette!Alot of self control and devotion is what it took to eat that meal. i spent the time focusing on being lucky enough that my Mistress would allow me such a grand humiliation and what it ment to me rather than how it tasted. That made it go down alot easier. i felt very devoted, i felt very safe and happy. i look forward to eating my dog food again because that is my place and that is what my Mistress desires. It was a very humbling experience is took alot for Mistress to show that i truly and nothing more than a servant for Her amusement and She seems to greatly enjoy it that way!

A note from Mistress Carrie

I recived text regarding my place in Mistress Carries life, She knows exactly how to speak to me and how much Her words motivate and effect me. Deep down i know how She feel about me but She knows i am a humiliation and degradation junkie. So She is able to channel that into Her own special brand of affection that we both understand fully. It is painful to know that i do not turn Her on but it is also humbling i know i used to turn Her on and so did our dynamic. But now it is all just so natural for Her that its just life, i dont even know what really turns Her on anymore. She has told me what turns Her on is none of my business and that my place is to serve nothing more.  That is all to say that i hope i know how She feel regardless i am thrilled to serve Her and be apart of Her life! As many people tell me i am very very lucky...Thank You Mistress.

Stupid Blogger

i have been trying to edit my blog to make it a litte easier on the eyes and easier to read for  few days now. But when i do blogger is having some kind of issue that doesnt allow my changes to save so know that it is being worked on and i will make some changes soon :)